Yesterday wasn’t the best day for me. Finally made a move via email at the end of the day on Tuesday and got a response semi-early yesterday and it wasn’t quite what I wanted to hear. Not sure exactly how to read it still but I’m mostly getting the “letting me down easy” vibe and that’s not what I wanted at all. It actually has affected me a lot worse than I initially thought it would. Was pretty bummed at work but it didn’t really hit me till early this morning. I try to stay optimistic but it’s hard because I had some high hopes and I really think he’s a great guy who would be a good match for me. But maybe it’s not in the cards?
Ended up having Tess, David and Skye-Marie over to watch the game after work which did help cheer me up quite a bit. I just love having them around and really need to get together more regularly. Game was good though Skye wouldn’t really let me watch most of it cuz she kept showing me videos and stuff on pbskids.org. Did catch some great Brooksie moments and intermission specials which I recorded so I can watch again later!
My Thanksgiving was nice. Went to the parents house instead of having it here. Lots of laughs were had and the food was delicious! Then we sat around and watched “Date Night” off of On Demand, Beauty and the Beast on ABC Family and lots and lots of the Black Widows marathon on ID. The ride home was a little scary because it’s raining and kinda foggy and there were a couple bad patches with lots of water on the road. But I made it home safe and sound and successfully made it into my garage for the 4th day in a row! I am still super stoked about that! It’s going to be wonderful when we start getting snow and I don’t have to scrape my car off every day and such! Plus I feel like I’m driving out of my own personal bat cave every day and that’s just pretty damn cool to me!
Dad came over during the week and Grandpa helped him put in my laundry sink downstairs so I have that now which is nice. Also grandma gave me some lights and I put them on my porch for Christmas. They are icicle lights so I still have to get some regular white (and maybe some red) string lights before I can actually plug them all in and see what it looks like. Unfortunately tomorrow is Black Friday so I don’t know how excited I’ll be about hitting any stores to pick up those lights so it might have to wait till the weekend to get anything done with that. Will be nice to have another day off though since the vacation was officially changed. Got approved for the last week of the year off and then whatever else will just roll into January. At least next year I’ll have the whole year to plan them out and can hopefully do something fun with my vacation time!
So Thursday I ended up skipping the gym cuz I was still sore from Tuesday and wasn’t in the mood to stick around work an extra hour and then kill ANOTHER hour waiting at the gym before the class starts at 8 when I had other stuff I could be doing. The ex ended up coming over for “the talk” which I had thought went okay but probably just made things worse. I really do care about him and want him in my life I just can’t keep trying for more than that when it’s just not going to work. and honestly I don’t want it to anymore. I just want to move on and hopefully find someone who’s right for me.
The bosses at work have asked if I can split my vacation up since we still don’t have someone to back me up. Of course it was too good to be true to really think we could be rid of that girl and still get everything we want. So my vacation is blown. Not sure when I’m going to take off now. The new replacement person should be starting on the 29th as long as her background check goes thru well. We’re hoping that we at least like her and hopefully she can get trained quick so I can take time off, especially since now it’s December and our time technically expires at the end of the year, though they did say we could roll some into January if need be since this really wasn’t my fault. I’m thinking maybe the last week of the year I can take and then I won’t really have much more time, if any, to roll into the new year. The reason my vacation was so long to begin with was because of the days we already get for Thanksgiving.
Friday night I stayed in to watch the Pens game and it was a nice one! Actually went to bed not long after to catch up on some sleep and was up early on Saturday I thought to get to work on my sink in the basement but it turns out my dad is sick and couldn’t make it so me and Mom just went to a few stores and got some things. I got a cute Penguin light up thing for my yard, which is currently living on my porch till I get Christmas lights up and can hook it out in the yard a bit. Also got some new Christmas Ornaments for my tree, prompting me to dig it out of the basement and set it up on the table in my living room. It’s nice and cheerful so that makes me happy since I really could use some joy around here! Moved some other things around and finally put up some pictures I’ve had framed and sitting around for ages. Did some laundry and other cleaning and it looks nice in here again.
Hoping today we can get that sink put in in the basement so we can take out the rest of the old rusty stuff in there and take it to scrap. Then I’m thinking maybe we can move the washer and dryer down and start coming up with plans for how I want to finish the bathroom downstairs. I was sitting on the stairs the other day thinking about it and I almost don’t want to put up walls and break up the space down there. May want to just get the new shower and maybe put some sort of movable divider or curtain for privacy but that doesn’t break up the physical space permanently. Especially with me being the only person here, it really is not needed because realistically who knows how long it will be till I’m starting a family and all of that.
Had a fun party with Misty and her friends last night and booked one off of it for December. I hadn’t really been booking next month yet because I was planning on being away and relaxing but now that’s all up in the air and stuff I really need to figure out what I’m going to do. Got a lot of compliments on my presentation and I definitely surprised a few people since I come off as really quiet and shy until I get started and then I’m like a different person. So I guess I somewhat see what people have been telling me lately about being outgoing and why I don’t really feel like I am.
Speaking of being outgoing. I really need to suck it up and start making some moves if I ever think anything’s gonna happen for me since I really DO want things to start happening!
Gotta make some calls and see what’s going on today.
Later,
Work has been busy lately, which has been nice. Not as stressy so it’s already getting better in that department. But we STILL haven’t hired someone so I really don’t know what’s gonna happen next week when I go on vacation.
Yesterday at Yoga we tried a new technique where we hold some of the poses for a full 90 seconds like they do in “Hot Yoga” and let me tell you, I’m feeling it today! Not super terrible pain or anything but definitely feeling it. 90 seconds is like an eternity when holding some of those poses, and we only did it for a few poses, I can hardly imagine what it was like in that class.
Tonight was nice. Jen K and her friend Alicia came over to watch the game. We got Pizza Hut and talked and laughed and the Pens won!! They try to get together once a week for a girl’s night so they’re gonna keep me posted. I definitely want to do it again. It’s nice chatting and getting together with fun girls sometimes! I <3 friends!
Yoga again tomorrow. It’ll be my second class with the other lady but I think I’m gonna like having two different styles and I feel a lot better about adding another steady day to my gym schedule. If only I could drag myself in there on Saturday mornings I’d feel really good about three days a week. But I’m working on it. I’m just happy to have stuck with it as much as I have and I’m gonna miss it while I’m on vacation. Guess I can bring my ID with me in case there’s an LA Fitness someplace in NJ or NY near where we are… it could happen, I mean I DID see one when we were in NJ for Grandma’s funeral so at least I know they’re in the state.
Gonna miss food day at work this month too, and the Pure Romance Christmas party too 
A little bit of bad timing all around on my vacation but there wasn’t much time left to use it before the end of the year and I def. don’t want to lose it. Next year should be much better because I’ll have more time to plan and spread it out. I really want to get friends together and do something fun. And I’m still hoping for Vegas again and maybe even Niagara Falls (though that does involve a passport nowadays, which I don’t have)
Not really a lot to talk about but I wanted to get in an entry before heading off to bed because I’m really trying to stick with this. Nighty night internets!
I so did not do anything yesterday besides dominate the DVR catch up! Only like three shows (maybe) out of a ton that didn’t get watched yet so that was pretty successful, g otta clean it out before vacation next week so it doesn’t fill up on me while I’m away! Hopefully I can catch some Pens action on the road, (even if it’s just radio) cuz otherwise I’m gonna be in some *serious* withdrawl mode by the time I get back! And I feel really weird leaving my house for so long, but at least the Seester will be there holding it down and taking care of Miss Mieux. But still…. I will miss it.
Work was reeeaaaaalllly quick today. After they finally dropped some dead weight on Friday I’m left super busy all day again which I’m fine with cuz the day goes quick, but it can get a bit stressy (and did several times throughout the day) Especially because we didn’t get a replacement yet and my vacation is steadily approaching so I’m real uneasy about leaving my poor team without me for two whole weeks. We’re all sufficiently busy in our own positions and I really don’t trust some new person (especially one that doesn’t even exist yet) to takeover my work load while I’m gone. I’m really sorry guys. Bad timing, especially with how it was a long time coming. But we’ll make it work I’m sure.
Another situation stressing me is the relationship situation, or lack of I guess you could say. I like a boy who seems like a really good match for me so of course I’m shy and unsure how to make a move but excited and hopeful that something comes of it. But in the meantime I kinda sorta have some unfinished business with the ex as usual. Mostly since I want to move on and he doesn’t and it’s just a conversation that’s been had a bunch of times yet still seems to be looming on my shoulders day after day.
Was supposed to catch up with Jen M tonight and watch the game but I don’t really know what happened with that. I texted her as the game was about to start but never heard back. Still on for Wednesday with Jen K so that will be fun. Hoping the weather cooperates so we can break in my fire pit at least once before winter, lol. Even though we both have to work in the morning so it won’t be a long night I’m still hoping we get a fire!
Paid a bunch of bills since it’s payday and the Pens game just came to an end. Stoked Henrik didn’t take another Shut Out on us. And at least we got a point out of it. My head just got jumbled and I totally forget where I was going with this post…. sure hope it calms down so I’m not unable to sleep again tonight. So on that note, I should probably start making my way towards bed. Sweet dreams internets.
Last night was awesome! Pens with another win, Fluery looking wonderful, Brooksie is all man, and Malkin with the hat trick: All good things! Then I met up with Jen K at her boyfriend’s for a bonfire! Had a couple Mike-aritas and a lots of laughs! Always nice just hanging out, listening to music, checking out you tube videos on our phones (Batman Pug was a big hit!) and telling stories around the fire. Was just a great time all around! And now Jen and I have a Pens date for Wednesday and we’re gonna try and start my first bonfire in my fire pit before the season is over!
Today’s just a nice lazy day. Crawled out of bed around noon and made it to the couch to catch up on the DVR. So far I’ve watched the most recent Ultimate Fighter and now I’m on my third (and final) episode of America’s Next Top Model. Then I think I have some SVU and lots of Bad Girls Club to catch up on too. Steph called to see if I wanted to come over and watch the (Steelers) game but I so don’t even pretend to watch football anymore… it just can’t keep my attention so why bother at all. So it’s the couch for me. It’s rainy out anyways so it’s pretty much made for this. Though I do need to venture out eventually to get a few groceries before the end of the day. Really hating that it’s getting dark so early now. It’s like 3:30 and looks like the sun that was barely out today to begin with is about to drop already. Ugh! May do some cleaning too, though it’s really not looking bad up in here right now. Could use a good vacuuming and just a little clutter tossed away cuz I have people coming over this week! Another Pens date on Monday with Jen M! I love company! And catching up with friends!!
I was thinking about starting to blog again, so I randomly threw this together and we’ll see how I stick with it. Added it to the app on my phone so that might help my chances.
Had a fun party last night with Tyniesha and her friends, and did pretty decent with there only being 5 ladies there. Got home really late and pretty much just went to bed.
Today we got some stuff done around the house. Grandma and Grandpa came over and painted my steps and replaced the deteriorating fabric step covers with nicer anti-slip stuff. I finally put up my magazines in my floating magazine rack, cleaned up some clutter and got a lot done in the closet room too. Tried on my new costumes that came in yesterday and I love them! After Halloween sales are the greatest! I have quite the collection now!!
Just finished catching up on last night’s awesome Pens game and now catching up on Thursday’s Grey’s Anatomy before the Pens vs Thrashers game tonight!
Gotta put together a wishlist for Christmas this year cuz Mom’s asking and, as usual, I don’t have many ideas. Pretty much just have everything or just buy everything when I want something. But I’ll browse around later and put something together. More concerned with what I’m going to get for everyone else. Got some ideas but I need to figure out who I’m buying for first.
